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The Self He is Uncovering

The Self He is Uncovering

By Muchukunda das

7/22/2020

recently divorced

eery at first

now I’m fine

life is nice

I sit on the porch

not literally because houses these days don’t even have them

they have high fences and no porches

but I am willing to share life with others as though I was sitting on a porch

sometimes I find parcels on my porch

like Aliveness.

God sent it

I didn’t know what to do with it at first

manuals help

I have always depended on dopamine to feel alive

but now I don’t

so I’m kind of in this weird space of being with boredom

but I don’t mind

because my guru told me what it means to be mild

non-dramatic, equipoised and cool

not jacked up

so I’m not expecting anything from life at the moment

I almost feel numb or melancholy

but I also feel serene, tranquil, and happy. I don’t run around looking for pleasure.

and that leaves me happy

pleasure never made me happy

it only left me empty

now when I have pleasure, I enjoy it

but that’s not the most important thing

whats important to me today is doing the right thing

and since I stopped honoring my minds demand to get pleasure, I can hear His inner tuition

and I follow it and it soothes me, solaces me and smoothes my character and personality

I love the self He is uncovering